Sunday, March 22, 2009

A Long Week in March

This has proven to be a very long week. On Wednesday we had another visit to the specialist in Topeka. I knew this visit was not going to turn out well when I fertilized the front courtyard of the hospital with my tummy contents before we even got in the door. I really wasn't feeling well, but we made the trip anyway. We were a little early, as usual, but I begged the nursing staff to see if the doc would give me something to settle my tummy. The doctor took me in right away and planned to send m up to their Labor and Delivery section immediately. He told me that he suspected the baby was gone. When we looked at the ultrasound she had a normal, strong heartbeat. The effects of the Turner's Syndrome were devastating. She is definitely struggling. The ultrasound tech made the comment that "she is certainly one resilient little baby." The doctor commented that he was really surprised that the baby's heart is still beating. All of this would be encouraging, but the prognosis is the same. We're tired....so tired.

I went back to work and continued to feel bad, so the docs at my hospital put me on "The Monitor" fora while. I took and IV, some additional drugs and was passed out in no time. There were no contractions, but small "irritations" that showed up from being sick. They sent me home for rest and then I went back in on Friday as well. They did another heartbeat check and another session of monitoring and there has still been no change. I haven't felt well lately, but Emma seems to be doing okay given her challenges.

This week I have also had to resort to pulling out the maternity clothes. I had hoped to avoid this, but t over 20 weeks, the pregnancy is becoming obvious.

On a good note, we were able to visit some friends this weekend. They were just a short drive away. We really enjoyed ourselves and appreciated some time away from this area. We have sort of been glued to our neighborhood for the past few months because we are concerned about travelling too far away from the hospital. This was a perfect trip because we were able to get away without being too far to drive home. Such a nice break!

9 comments:

Nancy said...

I'm so sorry guys... that is really tough. We are praying for your continued strength through this difficult situation.

Love,

Nancy and Ryan

Household6 said...

Thinking and praying for you and sweet Emma.

Heather

Unknown said...

I know a thing or two about a heavy heart right know. I'm praying for you to feel better so you can get through your days. I can only imagine how your wait is agonizing, but God's gotten you this far. "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, lean not of your own understanding..." Lifting a prayer of peace for you this morning.

Anonymous said...

Continued prayers from our family to your's....

Love,
Karen and Craig

Jean H. said...

Thinking of you -- haven't ever left a message on here before, but follow this from Rob Yllecas' page. I know you have been on the quest for the perfect pancake -- this article was in our local paper today and thought you might enjoy it.
http://www.journalstar.com/living/402/doc49c95901c05b8302960447.txt

tjdecker said...

I don't seem to find the right things to say when we're on the phone. Just wanted you to know how much you are in my prayers and thoughts all day. I have not been able to imagine how you manage to get through your days and night--only with the Lord's strength, for sure. Prayers and wishes that you continue to rely on Him for all your strength and each other for additional support. I know you will be able to manage whatever happens.
All my love and prayers, Mom D

tjdecker said...

I just wanted to let you know how often I think of you all and hope you continue to handle this pregnancy so well. As always, you are in my prayers every night and thoughts every day. I know you will be able to handle whatever is in your future.
God will continually give you all the strength and love you need during these difficult days.
All my love and prayers, Mom D

Karen said...

My heart breaks for you, Kim. You are such a wonderful person and I wish that you and Tim did not have to go through this.

Praying for you and your precious Emma...

Karen M
p.s. Have you thought about perinatal hospice?

Dena Yllescas said...

Hang in there, Kim. You are in my continued thoughts and prayers. Miss you!